Gidion started to show symptoms of being ill on Sunday 15 July. That evening just past midnight I rushed him to casualties, as I could see my angelwarrior was struggling to cope. Once again everyone was too scared to touch him (story of my life!). We eventually admitted him to hospital (with mom right beside him) and found that not only did he have the RS virus AGAIN, but also swine flu. My weak heart... He started the old story again by refusing to eat, and so all my nightmare memories rushed back with a vengeance.
But that was not the worst of it all. All of a sudden Gidion was petrified of everyone and everything around him. It was like all the years of hospitalisations and trauma dropped like a block of bricks on him. He would start begging people not to come close to him, and would start screaming in fear everytime the drips's alarm went off. I think that is one of the hardest things I have ever had to witness. I simply cannot explain the feeling of complete hopelessness and desire to take all the pain and fear on myself. And off course, then mom had to catch the bloody bug. So I'm (wo)man down... I cannot imagine how Gidion coped with that small body of his if he felt like this
But that was not the worst of it all. All of a sudden Gidion was petrified of everyone and everything around him. It was like all the years of hospitalisations and trauma dropped like a block of bricks on him. He would start begging people not to come close to him, and would start screaming in fear everytime the drips's alarm went off. I think that is one of the hardest things I have ever had to witness. I simply cannot explain the feeling of complete hopelessness and desire to take all the pain and fear on myself. And off course, then mom had to catch the bloody bug. So I'm (wo)man down... I cannot imagine how Gidion coped with that small body of his if he felt like this